Thursday, March 5, 2015

Hey, Anonymous

But if you hurt me, if you treated me wrong, if you were selfish with me, please forget about me. I'll be happy, eventually. If I won't let you back in, just stay out. I'm obviously done. I stopped being foolish when I stopped giving people chances they don't deserve along with pieces of me they didn't deserve either. So I took myself back. You couldn't respect me then, I won't respect you now. Especially now. I've never liked the scared type... "I fear trying anything else." 
"I don't think you'd have faith in trying again." I have faith in no one except myself, because too many people have treated me like you. I don't even know who this is because as far as I'm concerned the people who care about me CAN talk to me and have. I said it once and I'll say it again, you're a coward.

Monday, January 5, 2015



Ridding myself of the dirty past. 

Monday, November 10, 2014

Summer lovin' had me a blast

Summer romances never last. So, I shouldn't be surprised that you left when the winter came. 

Oh, and nothing's ever perfect. 

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

I'm done.

I'm done opening myself and my heart and my soul.

We're done and I'm done.

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Close to perfect

Everything has been close to perfect.
To you being perfect.
But nothing's perfect.
But you're getting so close to perfect.

Everything I've wanted. Said I've wanted. Thought I've wanted.

You figured me out.
You bought me flowers. I've never received them before.
You're a sarcastic asshole (like me)
You take care of me--you insist.
You are so fucking cute
You are the sweetest thing
You keep your cool (something I need)
You say all the right things:
  That it's what I deserve
  That I'm your princess
  That I'm your trophy and you want to show me off to the world. (I'm pretty sure I said that.)
  That I'm important 
  That I matter
  That I'm all you need
  That I make you happy

You make me happy and that's as close to perfect as I need.

06/26/14 1:16am

2 weeks you had me feelin'
2 months later and you're perfect 

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

We all sin differently

I've been ridiculed since I've been so open about my smoking habits. 

I get it, not your thing. But I just find it so hypocritical and hilarious that the same people that have nothing better to say literally, than "smoking is bad for you," while they post endless drunken and I-know-your-pupils-aren't-that-big-normally photos very other weekend.

I know that alcohol and ecstacy were so widely accepted, but really? You're going to ridicule me while you're the one with a DUI? Still coming down from your roll? Hungover from last night?

I was in that before, I've lived it. I know what it means, at least what it hides, what it numbs. 

Don't get me wrong, I still drink here and there. Why? Because THAT'S what alcohol's for, make the bad or not so good, seem better. But hey if you need to do that while you're with your friends, you've obviously got good company, right? 
I think that your dark friend Henny is the better company, no? 

"I just drink to go out and have fun!" You need to be inebriated for that to occur? To have fun? 
I'm sorry. Let me buy you that shot then, because you got issues. 

Let me just roll up my sleeves, smoke this, and do my thing. I'm not here to judge you. Drink up. Cheers. Here, I'll even blow you some smokin' kisses, honey. 

Sheer button up blouse, Necklace: F21 / Lace bralette: Foreign Exchange / Denim, Hat: H&M / SUSAHS ALDO

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Prep work for "The Game"

I'm at the point in my life where everything is prep work. Preparing for the future. In this "game" we call: life. I've been MIA from less than a handful of people. I've been taking my time away in order to prep. 

Love? Nah, (I've played that game already) just life.
Being happy--happiness in general.
Making money & saving money.
Preparing for more than just tomorrow. 
I hope you all are too.

Crop top: Foreign Exchange / Leather drawstring shorts, chain: F21 / Nike Free Runs